When something ends suddenly and you don’t understand why, it can feel impossible to move on. Whether it’s a breakup, job loss, or unexpected loss, the mind keeps going back trying to make sense of it.

Recently, I've spoken to a few people whose relationships suddenly ended, and they didn’t see it coming. 

Because they were completely caught off guard, there wasn’t anything they could point to that made them think it was about to happen. Everything was fine, and then it blew up. 

So, now they’re sitting there going, "What just happened?"

They keep going back to the last conversation, the last few days, trying to figure out if there was something they missed or something that didn’t register at the time.

And no matter how many times they go back to it, they just can’t figure it out. It’s like this open loop keeps playing in their head because they don’t understand why.

Open loops due to sudden endings aren't just found in relationships. The same thing happens with a job loss, or even the sudden death of someone you know and love.

You’re left with too many questions, not enough answers, and you keep trying to make it make sense.

That’s really what closure is.

It’s trying to make sense of something you didn’t want to happen, happening, and not being able to understand the situation in a way that answers all your questions.

Why You Keep Replaying What Happened (Open Loops)

You go back to your breakup or loss because it feels like you should be able to figure it out.

You replay as many conversations as you can think of again. You walk through the event over and over, trying to see it in a way that explains why it ended the way it did.

Each time you do that, it feels like you’re getting closer, even though nothing about it has changed.

You’re trying to get an answer out of it that wasn’t there the last time you went through it. So you go back again, expecting something to show up that wasn’t there before, and when it doesn’t, you stay stuck.

That’s how thought loops stay open.

Because every time you go back into a memory like that, you’re reinforcing the pain and uncertainty that tells the brain there’s still something there to figure out.

At some point, you turn things against yourself. You start going back through what you said and what you did, wondering if there was something you missed or something you should have handled differently.

Other times it turns outward, and you start picking apart what they said and what they did, trying to understand why it played out the way it did.

Who's fault was it? Because something clearly went wrong.

Either way, you’re trying to solve something without having the full picture, and that’s why it feels like you can't get closure. 

Why You Have to Stop Replaying It

At some point, you have to catch yourself in the middle of going back to the memories of the pain again and again.

When you keep revisiting painful memories, stalking their social media looking for clues, and replaying events in your mind, it isn't going anywhere.

Nothing about the situation or event is going to change, but you’re still expecting some new revelation to pop up.

And as long as you keep going back to it that way, closure can't happen because you’re the one keeping confusion alive in your brain and nervous system.

How to Give Yourself Closure (The Letter Exercise)

An exercise that I recommend to my clients is writing a letter for closure.

This isn’t something you send. This is for you, because right now everything is sitting in your head, looping on repeat with nowhere to go.

When you sit down to write it, you start with what you keep replaying in your mind. Write down all of the thoughts, fears, emotions, theories, and opinions you have about the situation.

You write what you didn’t get to say (but wish you did), what didn’t make sense (why you're confused), and what you can't seem to let go of.

Then you keep going.

You write the questions you never got answers to, and you write what you needed to hear them say back to you. You write the explanation or apology you didn’t get, the part that would have made it make enough sense for you to stop going back to it.

We can't go back and change what happened, but the subconscious doesn't know that. It can't tell the difference between fact and fiction. It will believe whatever you tell it....good or bad.

So, you’re bringing the situation to a point where it isn’t sitting there in your mind unfinished.

Once everything is on paper, you don’t keep going back to it because it’s not looping in your head anymore.

When It’s Not a Breakup (Job Loss or Death)

The same thing shows up with death or a job loss.

In work, you go back through everything, trying to figure out if it was something you did, something you missed, something you should have handled differently.

The more you go through it, the more it feels like there should be a clear reason you were let go, and when you can’t find one, it’s easy to make it about yourself.

But there are always things happening that you don’t have insight into, and when you don’t get all the pieces, you keep trying to solve something without having everything you would need to solve it.

When it comes to death, it’s slightly different, because the open loops aren't just what happened, it’s everything that didn’t get said.

You go back through memories and conversations, thinking about what you wish you would have said or done differently, and it can turn into a version of the story where you’re only seeing what you didn’t do.

The same process still applies when it comes to closure letters.

You write what didn’t get said and bring yourself or the situation into a peaceful and acceptable place at the end. 

How Ego Keeps You Stuck

Ego keeps you in the question of why in a different way. It keeps bringing you back to what it means about you, why someone would do that to you, or what you should have done differently.

Your ego wants someone to blame.

It can show up as trying to fix something that already ended, over giving, or holding onto something because you don’t want to accept how it played out.

It can also show up in not wanting to look at your own part in it.

That doesn’t mean making everything your fault, but it does mean being honest about the situation from all sides so you’re not carrying the same pattern into something else.

Giving Yourself Closure to Move Forward

Closure doesn’t come from finally getting the answer.

It comes from getting to a point where you’re able to move forward and accept the situation even if it's not what you wanted.

In that way, closure is a lot like forgiveness. It's for you and you often have to give it to yourself. 

 If you’re stuck in something you can’t seem to move on from, I can help you sort through what’s actually happening and what it will take to bring closure.

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